Hi! I’m Kim, 41 years old. Currently, I work as a grant writer for a non-profit child abuse advocacy agency and am in graduate school for my Master’s in counseling. I’m 5’4″ and 163 lbs. I lost 6 lbs., 11.5 inches, and went from size 12/14 to 8 during HHC Vol 10!
I was a healthy kid, but who didn’t have the slender body that fit clothing of the late 70’s early 80’s (meaning I have curves). I was very shy about my body and would cover up my hourglass figure. I played sports and performed in theater, and was always an average size, but I never felt I was thin enough like so many of my girlfriends.
In my 20’s I modeled, and left the agency because it was really tearing into my self-esteem (one cannot be a size 2 of one has a booty). In my 30’s I maintained weight around 145. I felt good about my body even though my diet and exercise habits were hugely inconsistent and restrictive. I had a very abusive second marriage, early into it I dropped down to 128 by doing 3-4 hours of cardio, krav maga, and weights a day and eating 1200 calories. I was told, at my tiniest size, starved for food, sleep, and love, that I was “getting there” in terms of looking good enough. I was also told things like I was too old/fat to wear a bikini. I entered into a very stressful job and began drinking myself to black out to cope with the daily abuses; and over 3 years my weight increased to 180 lbs.
I didn’t break. I didn’t hit rock bottom. I didn’t have a car wreck or get fired. I simply could not take the self-loathing and stress anymore. So I changed jobs, ended the shitty marriage, started school, and dropped 10 lbs. in a month just from minimizing stress. I went back to liking my booty and knew I was capable of re-discovering my healthy, happy self. I reminded myself that alcohol, like anything, in moderation is fine, but I had no idea how to really meal plan and eat what my body needed and have a consistent, do-able, enjoyable fitness plan.
I had wanted to join HHC for a few years because I’d been stalking… um, following, Meg. I appreciated her mix of honesty, realism, compassion and passion, and felt that having a support system and someone who could tell me what I was doing right and wrong would help. Boy, did I get more than I bargained for! I put all my trust into the process and met a wonderful group of friends from all over who were positive and motivational, and who I know I can continue to cheerlead and have as cheerleaders. Obar insisted on practicing simplicity, consistency, and being real about each day and your expectations for yourself, and that’s what works.
What an experience! The 12 weeks were all about the HHC members and WLR Ambassadors supporting each other struggles and victories, rebuilding a body-positive self-image, and being massively educated on fitness and food. The changes I made in my habits are solid and something I can do the rest of my life. The mental change I made – I didn’t lose weight and suddenly become good enough for someone else, instead I fell in love with myself again and made changes to make myself healthier- is something I won’t ever lose again. I can’t wait to do another HHC to continue to grow and be my best!